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Kenneth Goh painted at 1:58 AM |

"this was meant to be a spot to scream and bitch at janice.
till a friend of mine from hongkong who i met in a tournament in malaysia called the australs and now in geneva, switzerland mentioned

" why do u become so bitchy . do stick with your witty repartee the way i knew you. "

someone actually saw me this way

one word : wow!

kinds words from a kindrede soul"

Kenneth Goh painted at 1:21 AM |

"something we sought so often.
as much as answers themselves
they seem to bring some sense of closure of things
and yet we know deep inside that they just open another can of worms.

so seek out the best result. an end thats within itself"

Kenneth Goh painted at 10:52 PM |

"like a man knocked out of his wind i sit before
i wind myself to a frenzy only to drop the ball
i keep rehashing the essentials
wishing it wasnt so
living in the past aint any good no more
because one should love what one has now before its gone

yet how shld one know what to do
whenst all s one live for
was gone in those months past "

Kenneth Goh painted at 10:39 PM |

"i watched spiderman 2 today. kudos and applause to eugene mark - who incidentally for the sake of his sanity keeps a mile away from this page- he gave me the tickets to the 'gala ' premiere of the show . which i think, suffice to say, was anything but gala. loads of people and i had to be eugene mark for a few mins ....laughable..
so u wld think on a nice saturday night ... someone wld want to go with me to the show ...
but no. i got reasons like...a) tution b) exams c) kenneth u are too ugly.
ok ok so the last one was a lie...( tht such a comment was even made no not that i am in denial about my exteriors )
so i took my sis. the least troublesome female on earth. had great time checking out pretty gals dont ask me why my sis was chick watching with me. had popcorn. talked abt how gals i know compared up to u know who. teased each other abt being stuck with their unfashionable and horrid sibling on a weekend instead of doing something more interesting ( being with some real nice gal above 11 ... for me that is LOL) and for her ( anywhere else but at a spidey premiere with me)
turns out we had a great nite. seats was good. movie beter. fact i love this spidey. first was ok. but this was wwaaaay cool.

looking forward to laze round tomolo and hang out ....wheee... its 4 am now. starting to suspect my sleep depravation patterns are not going to do much good for me.

from this side of sanity to the other... lets go mad! woo hoo ( ok start worryin when i not only scream at myself but start singing any of the below a) spice girls b) spice girls and c) spice girls.

wait wait . i did this afternoon by accident. caught myself before i launched into the 3rd line. I KNOW. i GOT that damn far. this is scary.

ah...bed loved by me"

Kenneth Goh painted at 3:22 AM |

"some are tricky some are trick questions and then some .
give it a shot. i wont hold u accountable if u score a
http://themalebitch.friendtest.com


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Kenneth Goh painted at 8:59 AM |

"last rants
i m really happy i met u. i know i know awww... i ve been feeling shitty ... well till u came along. you know who you are.

england game's weariness is passing off. will avoid the sight of any newpaper tml.
i DO not feel like going to work . but then again who does. I wanna go out ...anyone up for it ? just read http://xiaxue.blogspot.com .... thinks this lass is mad. dont like her writing style but must admit she makes gd reading in a trashy womens mag kinda way i guess what do you guys think?

sleep depravation is a stupid thing to do. but i do it all the time what is wrong with me. aching back - i need a massage !- shoulders and neck - i need a 2nd massage!- -hint hint- but o well bet i wont get one...
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Kenneth Goh painted at 8:26 AM |

"todae or i meant last nite had a most enjoyable time. or day.
went to sp to adjudicate debates. first round was abot iraq and asia. and how american needs to cut down its troop there. i gave it to ntu . they were the better team suffice to say. second round it was iraq ( i know i knw) i gave it against PLB,VB,J tho i tot they did a pretty okay job again ntu won. last round gay debate my specialty, turned out really bad. for references , it became a debate about legal processes and the works ... how boring. went to plb,vb,j,FF and kelvin from tp to play some pool. met up with narveen as well....quite an interesting day. played qyute well as well. we went to bukit timah plaza. which is a stone s throw away from u know who ( for the unintiated a big clue wld b given in later posts ) and felt quite. ended with a nice cab ride home shared amongst a few of us.

den the evening went downhill"

Kenneth Goh painted at 6:54 AM |

"apparently i have found no reason to blog the past one week.
well now i do.
my disenfrachisment with football and the England team.
i am dead to football this moment forth ?
i see why some women find it boring but
football to me has always been about spirit. about how
a smaller, less gifted team through sheer grit and unity would kick some serious butt
portugal , a team i HATE ( minus c. ronanldo coz he is man united) are nothing but a bunch of arrogant scums right up there with holland and they beat england. fine they were the better team but still"

Kenneth Goh painted at 6:23 AM |

"if you dont want to be a good friend then i beg you not to look at my blog. i mean if you want to be ur "natural" talking self and not feel bogged then dont look at my blog.
i only want people who count as real frens to read this space.
nonetheless thanks for being a friend in the past.
i think its time we both moved on.
let's hope we'll meet in the future.
if we don't, I wish you all the best in your future endeavours."

Kenneth Goh painted at 11:33 AM |

"was supposed to have a meeting at ogilvy today at 9 am. woke my ass so early only to realised i was informed by email that he cld not make it.

to you: you get me, i wont erase u. sigh. i am being a pig. a green one at that. but its not my fault that i get that tinge of inadequacy whenever u talk about him right. is it my fault. its not love. i dont think it can ever be. how can u ever want to be with me. and even if so. how wld i know its because u dun want to be with him.

to you. i blame u. i blame u for whats been happening and will continue to happen. its easy for u. just pack ur bags and leave. i cannot believe after all the support i ve given u this is what u decide to do to me.

to you, no wait... both u lads. i hate your sort. strapping. charming. but most imptly got the attn tt i treasure the most. first one. u took my place. and done it so well to a fault that it shld be held over miles of saltwater. and u. looker. player . the man. makes me pale in comparision.

and to you. what have i done to u as ur junior and coachee all these years. why the hell do u want to do me in like that . the way u have done. u must be happy to see all arnd me turn against me and do your pathetic will. one day i swear i expose u for the scam that u really are.

now i know one thing.
i am a) not smart b) fat c) not good enough as i) a potiental bf ii) as a bf period.

to all applicants ( amounting to 0 ) go somewhere else. i want to learn to love . yet i am a trip. an absolute trip.

byword : i wld be great if u learnt to nurse me just tht lil bit. you gave up. and you also seem to be giving up.

who s it going to be . maybe you?!"

Kenneth Goh painted at 12:10 AM |

"i am going to shower but stay tuned. i am back . The Male Bitch is back in town!
a shot at EVERYone especially her and that ASSSSSSS~!"

Kenneth Goh painted at 9:26 PM |

"victoria school is being coached by some cunt named celeste. who the hell is she. some dumb jc debator. school never even bothered to call me! after all my effort of going back for FREE! i swear i hate the damn adminstration. i will sought other schools and proceed to kick VS ass with it. ARGH
VicTOrIa School Thy Son I AM NO LONGER

-rages on -"

Kenneth Goh painted at 9:22 PM |

"streaks of time perpuates a couplet
of good and of bad.
I am glad that this one is nothing but good.

As i peer at the air around,
I see boundless joy bursting at the seams.
Waiting to spread that same strength of positivity and joy?
But is one prepared to cast old hurts and pains for these

I shalt patiently wait.
for Her, the bright and euphoria
Rush, Don't follow me

"

Kenneth Goh painted at 10:53 PM |

"Its a weird start to the week.
Started on Sunday reading about this article of ABCs being more attractive to girls here.
I was reading on the way back from my mom's place and had 2 important revelations

a) It doesn't matter what race you are. Its about 3 essentials things. 1. build. the taller the better ( well i cant change this but i cant get meself into a gd shape ) 2. confidence and aura .i got the confidence. need to build that mysterious aura. comes with success in career i guess. and 3. background. the more of the world you, the more you experienced , the more the ladies would be entralled by you... ( decides to learn more languages and new unique skills )

b)just because you are a geek when you were younger doesn't mean a shit. There's hope in everything and what i do have is time on my side. i can change things... i can be the 'edmund chen ' mold.

Mom giving birth to a child... thats what she says. they are saying (dad,mum and sis) that she s baking a lil bun in the oven. i was in shock. apparently majorly in shock.
it better not be an elaborate joke. i ll murder them i bloody wld. LOL

On a certain female, i've noticed she s got this i am eternally damsel in distress thing. A societal norm but yet time and time again it works on me... only from natasha. i even felt guilty going with another girl alone. even if its not a date. heee ( movie,lunch shopping ... hmmm....not wat) not unless its you anyway. nat, you are the best thing that has happend to me since i've returned home. thanks for just being you.
yet sometimes i want to talk to you and i cant. i hate you. for being such a great lass that i cant resist i postiviely hate you.


How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of being and ideal grace.
I love thee to the level of every day's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for right.
I love thee purely, as they turn from praise.
I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints. I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life; and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

natasha you rock my world -winks-"

Kenneth Goh painted at 7:52 PM |

"i dont know what to say. first love3 is so pure. the sheer joy and excitement, the first kiss, the first time u go out at night... ah. the pure adulation that one who never gain again.

maybe just maybe"

Kenneth Goh painted at 11:28 AM |

"i m sorry/

i hope this .... "some people should just learn to shut up and not talk like they know everything in the whole wide worldddd especially when no one is responding to them. dont they get the hint?! " wasnt meant for me.

butwhy would I not be surprised if it is for me after all. i always get myself in trouble with that mouth of mine. You are a good friend and you've been really nice when i needed it. I peeved you off when i shouldnt have. Its my fault. please take my strongest apologies. jjt, you once said this... haha i cant live without u. well i cant. not the loss of your frenship and ingeniunity anyway.
so lets kiss ( ok maybe not on tt note .. ) and make up?"

Kenneth Goh painted at 9:25 PM |

"was so tired yesterday i fell asleep in the middle of the england friendly against iceland . . . IMAGINE that!

well started day in a shitty way (read:nyp )and its sunday now and i still havent fixed my comp . in other words, i am having HUGE trouble with a spyware. stupid chaps are trying to hack down my comp.

enought abt that. let s move on to the more important stff.
we went arnd yesterday. had bloody good lasagne i swear even whn i was in germany, i never had it so good. nooch has gone 3 places up the list of my favourite restaurants ! and they dont even charge service ( but then again, what service ?!) Damn camera died on me (again?!) it was quite amusing yesterday. using my reliable (NOT!) starhub information services, i got the 'listings' for shrek 2 which turned out to be incorrect. which meant that we had to rush to lido for the 4-15 show. only to realised whn we got there that it sold out. so we ended up watching confessions of a teenage drama queen payng 8.50 for a third row seat! ( i was thinking wht a day!) turns out we bump into a steph look alike sitting behind us. wats the chance?!
so when we came out ( she looked real nice in tt jacket) i suggested pacific plazxa... only for her to remind me tt j.k. works that! i mean come on give it a break already...
so we went round shopping and she kept saying shld I call j.k. or not to come down. obviously trying to get me green. well i wasnt
we went arnd more and i played at her game. threathening to call nicole.
strangely nicole called me back whn i went to the loo. so i missed her call. faked a callback and cld tell she was more than a lil peeved. then when i told her i faked it ... she kinda look a lil reliefed. did call back eventually to say no i cant make it.

was at that cd shop. decided to mayb go out with nic at night for fun. the look on the face convinced me not to. she seemed quite upset whn i said iwas gonna go to china black with nic. cant say i didnt love her reacting...
its good to know u are wanted and not cast aside because of some black staff...( pun not intended and no racism involved )"

Kenneth Goh painted at 12:09 PM |

"How one can be so happy if the person's happiness doesnt come forth from that individual ? If it isn't the case , then why does it matter so much that it practiucally/perenially made your day so to speak ? Green , I am not. Blue , just a tad. blue that what s been put in has come to naught / a spent effort against a valiant disconcerting genetic luck that seems to glow through to her/ i speakst of much but nothing at all.

hard fall it is not/ a scrap nevertheless it's still a scrape , however you choose to look at it/ can't say i am anyway close to the in-suffering i've dealt with in times receent passed/ yet close my heart i must"

Kenneth Goh painted at 8:58 AM |

"i had a really weird time this morning. look out for this space in the next few hrs ... in the afternoon
as promised let me share with u a crazy crazy day... /
firstly i left the house late so i had to rush and get the express bus. whn i get on board i am blasting Usher "You make me wanna ..." feeling groovy and all i suavely move to the back ... and as i move i heard some idiot shout ...You...hey u at the back...< i turn around only to see the stupid bus driver pointing dramam mama at me to go and scan my card again...?
shocks... i realised then that i had not brought my ezlink card and worse! i had no cash in wallet. left it on the table. was about to shamefully get off the bus when this rjc girl came up and offer to help me pay.

just then phone rang. apparently in my haste , i had lock my parents in the house. u see my hse lock one way which means if i lock from the outside no one inside can get out.... and vice versa. so i got quite an earful/ my reason to my mind was that i was so used to locking my own door when i was in germany.... ( downright lie i mean i ve been back for a whole month )

back to tt rj gal. turns out she s a friend' sister. one that i used to be quite chummy with . just at this most oppurtune time, that fellow who's name must be protected call!. and we were talking and i just decided to ask how was her sister ( with her right next to me and both of them ignorant that i was talking to their sibling ) and he somehow mentioned that she once had a crush on me. haha... imagine the shock. by then she gotten suspicious so i decided to sabo my friend and said out loud that he was sick to fantasise about michelle ( sister's best friend ) and the sister shrieked out over the phone that her bro was sick and laughed. fren mumbled something abt my death and hung. we both found it funny. of course the sister had no idea that her bro told on her...

then today i mircaulously found 10 euros in my pocket. was going to change it. then i found 10 sing dollars while on the way home. but then when i got on the train i realised i somehow lost the 10 euros. what a weird day.

well at least i know now if a certain ms. n bullies me or runs off with mr. bartender i ll just pop over to nicole ...hee"

Kenneth Goh painted at 10:08 AM |

"no i am not doing any grotesque thing with the wrong end of my body on the keyboard for christ's sake. the bum , i meant me , just cant get straight down to work. ( darn tep nonsense is killing me)

well first off i ll like to apologise for the lack of a picture and imagestation constantly reminding you that " you are viewing an image from outside imagestation.com" me trying to work around it at the moment and have yet gotten the solution.

It s thursday now but am most looking forward to the remaining time i got left before being release the hell that is nyp tep.

in the meanwhile my mind wondered off into daydreams and was wondering how nice it wld be if i was a certain gd lking bartender wrking at a nice place in orchard. gee...
getting attentions from every other gal, getting a nice blue note for a tip wld be most intriguing but i guess... i like the way my life is at the moment. uncomplicated and uncared for. o well///
shall go get a life pretty soon whn i get my new paycheque... wish life werent so easily bought off the shelves.

till next time ( which i ll try not to be today)"

Kenneth Goh painted at 2:25 PM |

"Your Brain Usage Profile:

Auditory : 35%
Visual : 64%
Left : 47%
Right : 52%

Kenneth, you exhibit an even balance between left- and right- hemisphere dominance and a slight preference for visual over auditory processing. With a score this balanced, it is likely that you would have slightly different results each time you complete this self-assessment quiz.

You are a well-rounded person, distinctly individualistic and artistic, an active and multidimensional learner. At the same time, you are logical and disciplined, can operate well within an organization, and are sensitive towards others without losing objectivity. You are organized and goal-directed. Although a "thinking" individual, you "take in" entire situations readily and can act on intuition.

You sometimes tend to vacillate in your learning styles. Learning might take you longer than someone of equal intellect, but you will tend to be more thorough and retain the material longer than those other individuals. You will alternate between logic and impulse. This vacillation will not normally be intentional or deliberate, so you may experience anxiety in situations where you are not certain which aspect of yourself will be called on.

With a slight preference for visual processing, you tend to be encompassing in your perceptions, process along multidimensional paths and be active in your attacking of situations or learning.

Overall, you should feel content with your life and yourself. You are, perhaps, a little too critical of yourself -- and of others -- while maintaining an "openness" which tempers that tendency. Indecisiveness is a problem and your creativity may not be in keeping with your potential. Being a pragmatist, you downplay this aspect of yourself and focus on the more immediate, obvious and the more functional

Honestly people how true do you find this of me ?
i donno. seeking answers from you guuys ."

Kenneth Goh painted at 2:04 PM |

"i cant see me loving nobdoy for all my life ....

its supposed to be a happy song aint it. then why do i feel no joy, no pick up feeling? tell me ?!

waiting for her to have free time for me "

Kenneth Goh painted at 9:40 PM |

"i walked past them today....
Jose,Anand,William,Jonathan and Poh Guan.

Debators. People i used to hang out with ( minus the last two people )
A symbolism of what used to be. a life gone by.

They were all sitting around at North Canteen , the camaderie once familiar
but not a distant cold memory.
A nod of head from jose , ignorance from some and just a hi frm others.
what is it to me ?
A lot.
I also met Jackie. he s a poor boy that lad. never accepted never good enough to make the team. shafterd from the very first moment , but somehow i recognise something in him in that split instance. the earnestness the innocence of the vicious wolves his presence was amongst.
i got my tea and bread and made the dreaded walk back past them again. this time, i chose to look away. not wanting to be met with non-gazes or worse , eyes of hatred.

These people are not my friends. not even him , or the other. its surprising how IL and DA could turn out this way but i shld have known... my dad already warned me.

To you my friend, you are right I AM the problem. for you. thats the case. It hurts when u say you dont care. you know that. I have nothing more to say to you it seems

To you, the 1 bright spark in my life... i can't wait to see you again ... a break i definitely need . Also if u really want to watch shrek then shrek it ll be i guess... haha why did u go "talk?" when i asked if we cld just sit arnd and do just tt...
scared to talk to me ?

now i am burdened with the same sort of things i have grown to dislike over the years. NYP teachers , NYP debators and NYP-TEP schedules .

Reliving a past life if only for these 4-5 days
A life that i shall leave behind with more than just a lil bit of
a bittersweet taste "

Kenneth Goh painted at 4:32 PM |