"Blogging on request of a certain missy... hee
playing checkers now with my sister (mastered by two generals my aunt and my cousin and my dad argh...)

Lets take the weekend in retrospect.
Friday : Did not have much to look forward in the morning till i realised i was meeting her for lunch. Kinda made my day a lil bit better ok ok alot better...

We went to burger king and sprung a lil surprise after the meal...which i can only say brought quite a delectable smile to her face. went around shopping after that...
had a call frm janice/ felt so bad. i meant it was quite serious/

but never mind. because i saw this god beautiful bag... wld add a picture of it soon. its nothing impressive but its very reliable and useful...kinda like me ! LOL haha . its really nice am most pleased with self.

Saturday : Sorry to eugene for rejecting u. for a movie of course. what were you guys thinking. well we ended up going for lunch and then watching eternal sunshine for the spotless mind ( no not with eugene u dope !) and it was GREEEATT . i so dig the ballsy, devil may care styled cinematography and the fantastic company -winks- and omg, zara had this real nice top.... at 59.90 only... gee if only i am earning cash. and there was this nice skirt for her....
O and there was also my sister's Birthday thingie at Pasir Ris Resort... but thats for another time s discussion

Sunday: i did nothing today except hang out with my cousin kevin planning his date for monday and playing xbox for 3 hrs. it cost us 17 bucks....-heart pain- so how were your weekends??? -talking as if i got millions of fans-





How happy is the blameless Vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot:
Eternalsunshine of the spotless mind!
Each prayer accepted, and each wish resign'd"

Kenneth Goh painted at 9:51 PM |

"josephine julia tan... or like the germans would like to call them...
UUUUosephine UUUUUlia tan. LOL...

well i have decided to dedicate an entire entry to this wild woman, i swear to god she is like none other and no that may not be a good thing .

You see me and jo go back a long time ....( haha no ge doesnt count lah hor ) she claims i tried to sexually assault her in the lift but for christ she didnt even catch my eye... haha jo i know you wont be angry. well jo is the sort of girl your mum warned you about. the one that would ruin your life. jo is crazy over all things french or rather 2 alphabets T and A....and she s really messy with her life. bf or ff (french fren ) haha

she is the weirdest gal i ever met . making symphonies out of -ahems - lol and she was oso the most guyish gal . but all in all great company.

here s a tribute to the affable jjt"

Kenneth Goh painted at 7:23 PM |

"i guess u cant call...
"

Kenneth Goh painted at 12:33 AM |

"I am inexistence, the absolute endless,
I come and go as I please.
As I drift through life, formless.
Chaos yet clarity is my gist.
As winds swept from planes to plains,
So flow I from veins to rains.

I am eternity's thought, the incomplete imagination,
From forth I breathe the airs of vitality,
Which grant countenance which begin ascension,
So define me, in the emptiness of infinity
Thus in insanity, I am unveiled to viewed.
As to denial, where I am to be fulfilled to be revealed.

I am suspended, immune to time,
I exist, only to accelerate understanding,
Malevolent or benevolent, guilty am I of neither crime,
Through me will greater wisdom bear understanding,
With that bequeath the price of prize,
To be paid with the justice of sacrifice.

Upon which identity is impossible to clarify,
I am your source of misfortune to dignify,
Hence fate has no strings to render you blind,
As I am but a secret locked within your mind."

Kenneth Goh painted at 12:31 AM |

"my fault. keep asking you to call back. then in the end when u did. someone else called u. o well. anyway, its been nice. drop me a line soon.

haha today at work we had a training seminar ( lame sales pushing speechtime ) and apparently i was singled out for acclaim. well i did managed 4 days back to back worth of sales but hey isnt that our job. hey -basking in glory- its not an easy task they say. o well. me now most unhappy with self. wish i did not have to go for bloody tep next week. i am losing -calculates- 200 over dollars worth of income as a result of the stupidity of the darn systems. curses .... currrrrssssessss"

Kenneth Goh painted at 12:46 AM |

"i realised that the last entry i only talk about the first two stuff.

lets put it this way....its been real nice/

its been awhile since i felt this dumbfounded/
acting like a lil darn kid./
yet when i said what i did/
i meant what i did/
so do you fancy me the way I fancy you/
what an answer indeed/

going out...
Big o... the frozen cheese cake... the shoe incident lol shopping at zara and all.. and the ride back to cck... wow. really nice. cant wait till i see you again.

and to you if you are reading this. i know what you are doing . get off my back and stop trying to ruin everything.

and to you. i am still here 4 u as a friend shld u need me and for christ sake. yes i will fill u in bout her. aiyoh.

today i did 2 sales! i sold 700 over dollars worth of products. yipee... am i good or what. haha

made fun of your(2) friend.. quite funny. honestly , am a lil apprehensive am i stepping into a lioness's den. u seem too gd to be true"

Kenneth Goh painted at 7:50 PM |

"http://content.health.msn.com/content/article/86/99193.htm

You think after such an extended length of time, researchers would have finally given up on discovering the next big Truth. Gee, no shit sherlock, yes we men do not like the idea of watching toned six-packed guys advertising or pushing some new products. i mean what makes you think that we would actually fall for the trick of ' use this and be like this macho cutie!' there are only 2 types of people who fall for that a) gays ... because they would agree that these guys are cute and just buy these products on impulse and b) women... they dont need much excuse to shop and buy stuff. even male magazines showing nothing but hot blonde women . 'Nuff Said.

Sex Addiction...decided to put myself through this lil test ...
the lot of you should take a look as well and see what level you're at

Sexual Addiction Screening Test criteria (partial list)

* regularly purchase porn or romance novels ( nope. christ, like we any good of either)
* preoccupied w/sexual or romantic thoughts ( hmmmm.... maybe)
* feel behavior isn't normal ( is bitching like a gal normal behavior )
* partner complains about your behavior ( ask ms. a certain fren , tho she
let me call her "a partner")
* worried your behavior will be discovered ( mwuahaha i am waiting to b discovered!)
* multiple romantic involvements ( with myself n with you(2) is tt much?)
* use sex or romantic fantasies for escape ( frm wat? even more sex n fantasies?)
* regular participant in S/M ( this one is a definite no! :)

ok officially, I've got a pretty healthy sex life... though i havent got much recently...by choice thank you v. much. ha!
erh... not an addict but working on it.

"

Kenneth Goh painted at 7:18 PM |

"i wish i did not hear what you (1) know this but i dont know you anymore. we are strangers. its almost weird. ahhhh... dead tired. will write about it tml evening must get some shut eye. "

Kenneth Goh painted at 1:59 AM |

"here goes. lets see...
today is the FA cup final. Supposed to be a day i enjoy watching my beloved Devils kick some Lions' butt ( for the misinformed we not talking bout some kinky porn flick here. its manchester utd. vs. milwall ( did iget the spelling right ) . well my dad had to decide to put money on god darn milwall winning thus i am served the sentence of a) either betraying my loyalties and wishing my dad wins his bets and man utd loses or b) risk my dads wrath. .... faced with a tough pair of choices , i chose c) not watching and talking to you(2).

she called me this morning. and lets put it this way. what a way to be woken up early. nice , angelic voice. i feel like i m already in love -gushes like an acne-plagued, cross-hearted , viringal , sex-crazed ( ok this aint true -winks- ) 15 yr old kid. .... now jokes aside. you(2) been most nice. so contining my story... so i had a nice chat on the way to work... had a great day at work... but best of all met up with sam and elaine... my pals frm class. bitching.. and spending substantial money paying for a part of their bill ( learning to be even more gentlemenly 101 ) yes i know you (-1) wld be laughing at that but its your own darn biz d .

well.... we went to indochine ordered some drinks and sat around. elaine called her friend down but apparently she doesnt want to because she thinks i am fat ( ok not far from truth ) , ugly ( hey cut me some slack) , obnoxious ( only to certain people ) angmoh-wannabe ( so i speak better english then you ) asshole. and she doesnt even know me personally. o well, people are judgemental and i dont need this sort of people around me. elaine valiantly stood up for me - loud applause - haha...

sam looked good today.. very glam with her new airstyle.. oops i mean hairstyle. v. girly. quite diff frm the sam i knw. but good none the less..

v. v. gd day. m most please with self.

reading & sniffing : the edge of reason (b.j.'s sequel .... i love the smell of new books ...this and nick hornby collection ) smell of new books are very exciting no not in that weird way eugene...heee
listening: incubus drive .... acoustic just the way you(2) like it...
watching: myself rant on and on...

p.s. m most please with new lease of life n excitement within. must keep note to save some for slower days "

Kenneth Goh painted at 10:51 PM |

"haha . for the uninitiated ..the edge of reason is the sequel to bridget jones diary. yayaya i know its a chick book but if u wanna bed them u need to figure out what makes them tick right ...

feeling like an ass....
"

Kenneth Goh painted at 10:50 PM |

"I AM the BEST! mwuahahaha. i finally made the sales target of 3 sales per week. Thats sales worth 1k mind u and i am only getting 30 dollars of commission but it ain't about the money. You see the biggest motivator and demotivator is the customer...
no matter what others tell you, nothing can suffice enough satisfaction as achieving goals. at least for target-crazed me. boy did i kicked ass.

Lets look at the past 2 days in recap. its been nice going out with you(1). you(1) who holds the key to my passwords . esplanade was nice. yes i was a lil jaded i guess. wanted to just hang out and talk . not walk arnd. it must b real tuff on you to have to keep ur lil rendevous secret frm nosey parker frens. no its really ok abt leaving early. just got a lil down . but i am good now .

to you(2) whom i just knew. last nite was real nice. been awhile since i had so much fun chatting. i apologise for being absolutely inane and a lil off the rocks , but thats me ... essentially kenneth
haha seems to me u be a real nice lassie. and you(1) has been giving great grief about it. teasing me no end. i swear to god i ll get my own back at her. but enuff about me.

this morn... was the best way to wake up early in a long long while. though my bad singing and morning voice was embarassing to say the least ...quotes "you sounded better last night " unquotes

so... finally an upbeat note to put on this place.

Reading: The Edge of Reason
Listening: to the sound of the FA Cup final... ( okok that doesnt count)
Watching: fa cup "

Kenneth Goh painted at 10:25 PM |

"i am seriously re thinking how well advised it is for me to continue blogging.
i am taking this into serious consideration in light that i ve gone a lil mad
how could someone feel jaded and be laughing their asses off.

wishing i m in bangkok and the oblivion of debates."

Kenneth Goh painted at 11:48 PM |

"haha. i realised that some people thought i typoed when i said singaporeans are un religious. Its my own pun , silly .it really is. chris , you shld know this one. -winks-

Well any way , works not good. Only made one sale this week... must change the darned leads.

in any case, i miss u guys.. the ka8. i mean only 2 of u are around. chris , stupid gal is in melbourne enjoying the aussie sun... 2 are in nice part of the world ... EUROPE. naz ... in god damn army. yes corp. i ll be knocking it down for u soon. and the debators. haha damn bangkok . lucky ppl.

for you. you know what i feel. i do like u. but u always make it like i just been taken for a ride some way or the other. for the way it ended . i am sorry.

i cant say i am happy now. but i can say that for me, time flies real fast."

Kenneth Goh painted at 9:38 PM |

"its amazing how some readers of my blog have so feverently decided to use my words here against me.
ok so you scored 1560 for your SATs. Good for you.
I mean why should i care with what you said. I told you to get out of my life awhile ago.
See me as a friend. Can you even phantom the meaning of that.
Gee drive a car, pamper you. Gee. its all good and nice that you are so smart.
You merely live off your parents.
Start working. Stop whining and maybe , just maybe you would gain a bit more respect. ?
So who i am to comment. Really, i might have none of what you have. Money , brains or dare i say this ... HEIGHT. It doesnt matter because I m glad I m done with a brat like you. So if you really enjoying me flaming you stick around but like i told you.
I'm not concerned by you kids anymore.

"

Kenneth Goh painted at 9:17 PM |

"i swear to god that singaporeans are so unreligious.
i been working to sell some membership and i swear no amount
of experience would let me enjoy like this.

no mood to blog will update accordingly when in better mood"

Kenneth Goh painted at 11:23 PM |

"i am happy. so glad. that she speaks to me again

Thank you God.

Now I see you were right. "

Kenneth Goh painted at 9:46 PM |

"This blog is for the KA8 ... for the unintiated KA8 ( Kenneth Advisory 8) provides intricate opinion and analysis on the soap opera drama of a life that is mine - grins and takes a dramatic stage bow -

For the record. I did it. I finally push us to the edge of no return. I didnt want it to turn out like that. All i wanted was someway to get out of her life so the guilt cld be removed. I reflect on the past one week and the way i pulled the plan off and it irks me.

I must firstly apologise for missing all the calls and not replying to smses. Pls take heart that I am well and good and have merely decided to take her advice and be alone for awhile.
So I did.
And this is what i have reflected

1) It was a mistake. the whole plan to get her to get angry with me so much so/
that she would not want to speak to me. I thought initially that it was for the
betterment of both of us and that it would remove the shadow i casted upon them.
I cant say i entirely failed on that note because i have not had any updates. for
obvious reasons.
2) I have been the most selffish individual. The best way i could have treated her was
to have treated her was to be half decent and be a good friend. Now, even if i want
retain a friendship, it would not be possible.
3) Damn U ... U who gave me the idea. Now i am stuck in the middle of no one.
I AM over her so why the hell did i have to do this. This is dumb.
4) there are some things in life you just cant undo .... I hope this is not one of them.

To you, i never wanted it to end this way. i guess i am solely at fault. I ve been praying all weekend for the awakening .. the bit where one wakes up and realises it was all a bad dream. The next day and your reaction shocked me. We never had fell out so bad. And the one time we did, I guess had to be the last time we spoke. Nevertheless....
I ve put alot of thought into this and hope to hear from you soon. I have stayed away from your blog. Not wanting to see your efforts of eliminating me from your life.

Its my greatest regret to lose you once again...
Knowing full well, that this time its solely my fault.

"

Kenneth Goh painted at 5:46 PM |

"Humans are sadistic creatures , well at least I am.
I've returned to the place
A secret haunting,
I let the ghosts and ghouls of past misgvings
Indulge me.
Only we knew
A secret rendevous
One where the only company I have is solitude.

The sky bursts out in sunshine, the city below bustles
A soul. My dark shame ruffled
I miss the past but yet i condemn it
This lonesome path is one i dread

" I see him around the corner once again.
I am going to finish what HE started all years ago.
The fear and dread leaves me.
God! Spare me the suspense
Bring him forth. ""

Kenneth Goh painted at 5:39 PM |

"Why does she think its weird ?
Cuz he’s supposed to be with her
Is it attraction? Or Infatuation?
it’s a fusion of both. I cant tell for now but I knw its not just a dumb crush that wld go away.i am more than a lil scared and apprehensive. But love in general ….

I think she s been very nice and sweet.
Thanks ya

its more than a lil crazy. She s so diff. special in her own way. Different from you know who.
But he was attracted to she who must not be named! Not the one in question now…4 mths ago he thought she was bitchy!

yup I did. Its like the characters in a messed up british society that Ben Elton so loves to portray.
maybe I ll take the leap. Maybe she could be the one to beginning the healing. My wounds. And the guilt of the other two.
Then she might lose the friendship of her. And she doesn’t wanna be a rebound

I don’t believe in rebounds. But things has to go slow for now at least….
slow emotionally.

And physically.

yes. Wait… no. wait… ok maybe not.
ah...seriously we ll see .

abt everything. live for the moment"

Kenneth Goh painted at 7:07 PM |